Gutter-Mouthed!

A tiring day today.. went to classes, came back and guess wat i’ve got? hmm hmm..

PResssy!!!

orite,

PRessy number 1 of 19th July 2007
Sender: My lovely, sweet, cute, gorgeous darling Evoone Hoe
From : Penang all the way down to melaka.. so touchy..
PRessy : A big box PArcel..

k.. as i have oredi promsie her, i wont open the parcel until satruday.. so ya.. let it be in my room for 2 more days

Pressy number 2 of 19th july 2007
SEnder : Ken
From : Mlk gua? not too sure ( touchy also la )
Pressy : a bonquet of my fav lilies and roses.. omg u’re just so sweet

dah dah.. here it is.. oh ya, this is second pressy from him.. i think he’s trying to earn the title "MR . Give Most PRessies to LAvenda?" haa…

And also thanks to those who send in wishes in testi box and private msg.. especially The Backman, and Leng yein jie.. Johnson and etc etc… and also Bobby!! thanks for countdown=ing ok.. =P

Muaks and hugs and lotsa kisses and hugs and bao  bao and wen wen to all of u..
U guys makes my tiring day perfecto :P, Group HugsS!! mwahsz…

Sincerely from a-lil-happy angel,
Lavenda

A blue wednesday for me… Missed the class early in the morning.. sigh~~.. By the way, my birhtday is on the way.. and ya, it’s my 21st.. no big deal anyway.. these few weeks, felt kinda down and devastated over some spesies they named it GUYS /MEN/ Macho/ CHAcho.. wat eva… BUT.. my life seems alive since yesterday.. Cant imagine that, the least expectation indeed brings u big surprise wor :).. First it was Ken.. Thanks so much for your Chivas 12 oh.. appreciate ur lil token of bday pressy… Second attack, it was my darling willy.. She bought soething so sweet for me.. although is not terlampau super expesnive things.. but is not cheap.. and is so meaningful and sincere and omg.. i just love u so much willy..  i’ll be back .!! haha.. we’ve more fun ahead ya.. muaks.. and then the Third attack.. it was a self written, self composed song by a frend of mine.. GuoZhen.. omg.. i was so touched by you wei.. u melted my heart .. all the best to u in UK ya.. u better dont forget the angel who drop from the sky and .. pain la  =p… ANYWAY… thanks also for those who send in testi and early wishes in my frendster ( raymund, Jack, another Jack, the backman, alots more.. etc.. im so happy this year.. unlike last year.. where i sat alone cried over my birthday .. =)

somehow…

there’s always ying and yang … so when there’s good things happen.. there must be bad rite?? so here’s the nasty one.. and im hurt .. truly hurt by this person for the way he talks, the way he treated me, the way how he ended our frendship.. great job bro!! keep it up.. im strong, i can take it.. wat else that i nv been thru?? oh come on.. Let’s get it STINK!! haha…. me so happy to get hurt actually.. cuz there’s still so many nice ppl around me.. so sweet.. especiailyl those come from far away for my birthday party this friday… those who take efforts, take bus and all the hassle.. i llove u all.. so for the stink ppl, come and hurt me as much as u can ya.. at least i learn something le.. =)

oh ya, and for those ask asked my address, to send me parcel i know.. of i know.. im not 3 years old kid.. thanks u guyz k.. love u bunch.. specialyl the on at penang.. u better roll back asap.. im gonna hugs u real tight.. .. and ken? 2nd pressy? 1 garden of……? make sure u make it .. lol.. kidding la.. 1 lily ok.. lovely and sweet..=) orite.. till here.. update to u guyz agian..

Love love love is in the air.. without u guyz, im nothing.. living in the dark…. now im like an happy girl!!! keke.. muaks…… XOXOXO

Love whole heartedly,
Lavenda Boo Boo =p

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know whats beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
Ill make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
Im shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everythings easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
Ill make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
Im shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
Ill make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
Im shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

You love me
When you tell me that you love me

I’ve been twisting and turning,
In a space that’s too small.
I’ve been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You’ve been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Well I can’t explain why it’s not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It’s the better thing to do,
It’s time to surrender,
It’s been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don’t fit anymore, Pieces don’t fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That’s breaking my skin.
Well I’ll hide all the bruises,
I’ll hide all the damage that’s done.
But I show how I’m feeling until all the feeling has gone.

Ooh don’t missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I’ve tried, yes I’ve tried.
But still I don’t know why, no I don’t know why.
III dont know why…… whyyyyyyyy!

In my childhood, 5 or 6 years old
Every sundays
Where local night market used to be
Mum holding my tiny hand crossed the road
At the entrace
I saw Uncle Balloon, in his 50s or 60s
Good day , said i
He smiled
Handed me a string of Balloon
"Catch the string well, or else it will fly off"
I heard.

Happily me said, " I will, thanks uncle "
He smiled
Rubbed my pony tail.
And i waved Good Bye.

Few years later,
Where times rolled on like a train,
One day, 3am
BANG!!
There goes his son (* Lancelot ) crashed his bike with the Kancil,
Unconscious,
Kancil droved off.
*Lancelot lied on the road helplessly
Minutes later,
Good mankind-cum-Passerby stopped
Called 911
Sirens heard,
*Lancelot unconsciously lied on the stretcher in the ambulance
Beeeeeeeepppppppppp……
*Lancelot’s gone..
As simple as that,
As fast as nobody knows.
Few days later.
It was Sunday
I went to the night market,
Uncle Balloon frowned,
Talked to me,
" Sayang.. He just go like that…"
" With no claims, no insurance…i just able to held a simple funeral for him"
I felt sour..
* Lancelot used to be my friends too
His depart , eventually is my sorrow.
I cried when he left
Or maybe when i heard the news?

Today,
Sunday.
I passed by Uncle Balloon’s stall,
He looked good today
I think *Lancelot too, happy
But, sour i felt.
Balloons doesnt bring much profit
But Uncle Balloon has been selling Balloons for years
Since im 4 or 5 years old, till then.
His determination?
Just to make childrens happy.

*Lancelot,
We all miss u
And you will always remain in our hearts.

May God be with you always.

*** The name Lancelot has been changed to secure the privacy of the real person